Sunday, July 8, 2007
I shall officially announce that my brain would burst by the time history test comes. i've bombaded my brain till it's like unable to remember anymore information! how horrible is that lah. now like i can only remember simple simple things. GRAH. my brain is dead dying.
Hah i wonder if any of my seniors actually read my blog. lols like they EVEN bother. but i do. i found their blogs. LOLS. they are so deAD hehe.
Yesterdays open house was such an embarrassment. everyone just stares at u especially when u are dancing and becos of lack of practice u forget ur steps.... k shan't talk about unhappy stuff.
The funfair was kinda a disappointment but it's a good thing that there were no disputes. everything went KIDNA smoothly after we manged to connect my deep fryer into that extension thingo. GOSH before that miss foo was SUPER mad. anw now that we have won the cleanliness award, she should be a little appeased. would she? anw we are really very guai to like do our duty and MAKE SURE THAT WE CLOSE THE DOORS AND WINDOW WHEN WE ARE THE LAST TO LEAVE. how guai can we get lah. gosh we are one great class. :D :D :D :D sometimes i really love 1/3. i loved it on fri during the funfair :D i especially loved Xintong's enthu-ness on that day. i was already shocked at her GREAT behaviour right early in the morning when she usually is all sleepy. she helped to wrap the ice in dirty newspaper and CARRIED THE SUPER HEAVY ICE BOX! not only that! during the first shift she was helping to dry the hashbrowns of oil and serving them to the customers :D i'm so proud of her enthu-ness man. XINTONG u rock :D do turn into another form of u and become stone pls. LOL that's not even funny but as i said, my brain is going crazy.
DO u sometimes stop to think, what are ur goals now? why u are doing what u are doing now? sometimes i just think that our life's all about studying and then getting a good job then raise a family worry about family matters and finance and then u just leave the world. WHAT SIGNIFICANCE do u have to the world actually? when u aren't a minister or a president or a great achiever, who would actually take the time to remember who u are when u are gone? who would bother to write a book about u? who would want u in their memories to live forever? Time heals all wounds.. u would really forget how a person is like if u dont meet him or her after a long time. ur attitude, ur behaviour, u would even feel shy towards ur closest friend, closest relative, even ur closest family member.
Would adults ever realise their mistakes? would they realise their lack of filial piety one day? sometimes i ask myself to stop critisizing pple cos one day, i would end up like them too. i've told a couple of pple, if one day i behave life this when i'm old, pls tell me off and slap me awake. cos some behaviours are really stupid and childish. why are there such pple in the world? those who just shun at the sight of ur relative? wont' even want to invite them in when they are at ur doorstep? why are there such pple who just keeps thinking that their parents are irritating when they just need attention, someone to talk to? I believe, sincerely believe, that u really need to keep a distance to realise the importance of someone to u. take one step back and think, how have i treated her? how have i treated him? when he/she is gone one day, would i regret what i'm doing? i really regret what i do to my brother sometimes, screaming at him to study, nagging at him to not sleep on my bed when he could well sleep on his own, nagging at him to stop kicking the ball so that he'll not waste his study time. AM I expecting too much? but i would feel even more horrid when i do not say such things cos i feel that i would be yan3 zheng1 zheng1 seeing him rot away.. would he EVER realise how much i care and why i'm doing this? DO I LIKE TO NAG? TO SCREAM? i'm really very tired sometimes and can't help being angry but u can't blame me right. is what i'm doing right? would i in turn, harm him instead? i don't know. this world is unpredictable. But life is also a wonder, when u see that man can accomplish such wonderful things. how they can succeed in the most unpredictable things.
i was watching a documentary yest. these jap man built this 2km suspending bridge. every movement had to precise, if not their whole 30 years of effort would be in vain if that step was unsuccessful. just that moment, and ur whole project would be in jeopardy. Imagine. that moment of ur life. just a misalignment and ur whole project that u painstakenly planned for would be gone. just like that. but pple do succeed :D the wonders of man :)
Hah it's history test on tues and i've got a feeling it would be tough for me to handle but i'll try my best and be positive :) i would pass with flying colours. most importantly to JUST DO IT! :)
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