Dance in the Enchanted Forest...

Sunday, June 3, 2007

Hi pple. i just wasted my whole day. slack.slack. but i ought to? i DUNNO!!! should i be slacking.should i be slacking.NOOOOOO. i shall reassure myself then. i need a break!=) only completed the chinese SIA today. so xian can. do like for hours cos i wanted to perfect it. the rest i got so lan. haiz. aiyo JO!!! u are not cut off lah pls. now there's no contact sure like that one mah.haiyo.u organise class outing?hehe... i'm so xian.stuck at home like a caged bird...=( haven't watched shrek 3.haiz let's see what homework i'm left with: 1) edit scenario writing 2)think about the miao xie wen 3) upload ICT 4) do more art sketching 5) chinese FPS project.

solitude------------------
solitude------------------

i DON"T LIKE IT. no one likes it. but i've just experienced it. having been totally ostracised. maybe i shall try to bluff myself into liking solitude. maybe it works. then i won't feel so sad. nvm sometimes being alone is good. u think more.ur mind wanders more. u let ur mind fly away~~~~ i shall try convincing myself more.

i love solitude.
i love solitude.
i love that feeling.

NO. i don't feel any better. maybe i do miss pri school, when i always had a friend to be by my side. now i'm left alone; real alone. yes aunty of HPV, i want to share my drink with u. thank u for making my day feel a little better. yes i got root bear when i tasted anything. it made my day worse. now i know what it feels like. sorry to those if i've ever ignored u. i want to call her now. i want to talk to her. someone whom i think still understands me. but she has other friends now, will she still care about me? i shall trust her, yes she will still stay by me. can i call u? can we talk for hours and hours again? can we call each other at 8am everyday like how we used to? i think that was my only comfort during the stressful year of 2006. Thanks for always being there for me.=) i feel the breeze carassing my face. only comfort i had on the bus i guess. Jia, can we talk? like how we used to?

maybe everything will repeat itself again tomorrow. never mind. i love solitude. But i shall be happy. No point feeling sad. it wastes time. i shall be cheerful, though inside me, it hurts so badly. i don't think anyone can tell, cos i don't normally show my true true feelings. maybe i should lock my blog again. what's the point of telling the whole world my feelings? Shiyan, u are going to enjoy urself tomorrow k? no matter how bad u feel, just smile=) laugh it off, since laughter is the best medicine. Don't worry pple, i forget things fast, and i won't wallow in self-pity. it all still come to the same ending. what's the point?

-----loving solitude-----

the enchanted forest*