Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Sabbaticals is damn boring...SUPER boring...what creative writing lah? waste time only...ARGH. should have joined crime...nvm the only good thing is that i can complete SIA. shan't cry over spilt milk. i'm being so spoilt.haiz. STEPHANIE IS SO NICE! probably the only person who can cheer me up from those boring creative writing lessons. she is super funny lah! we laugh at practically the most wu liao stuff. BUT SHE IS REAL NICE. never knew she was this type of person until i really got to know her. always thought that she was a serious and hardworking girl--ok maybe hardworking, but i don't think she is so serious. muahaha thanks stephanie!
went to Arab street for the malay culture. it wasn't as nice as i thought it would be but nevertheless, it was ok. we walked around like idiots and bought nice kuehs. OH YAH! when we went to the museum, after completing the first story, me and stephanie found the staircase to the next story. when we open it was so dim and quiet that we didn't dare to enter, so i ran down to ask more pple up and gang qiao saw marilyn and eva. then i asked them up....
we entered the dimly lit room and then everything started to seem so spooky...there were some figurines on display and when i pointed at them to marilyn, she literally SCREAMED. ok i was SUPER freaked out too lah. i covered the question paper over my head and kept looking downwards on the floor as i walked. Marilyn kept pulling my bag and hiding her face too. i think both of us were the most freaked... and i just realised something about eva.. that she is super brave. she like walked as if she were our parents like ruo wu qi shi. pro lah.actually i dunno why i was so scared too.. probably cos it was only four of us and the whole place was dimly lit and SPOOKILY quiet... *BOO!*
ok thatwas lame. anw watched spiderman with sally yesterday afternoon. we didn't expect it to end so late lah.. haiyo. so spiderman's a JERK. i just realised.he was such an idiot. and if there were a spiderman4, i wouldn't watch it for goodness sake. Looking forward to movies like SHREK3, pirates of the carribean and so on... wahaha there are such nice movie coming along! WEeeee. i feel damn slack thi whole week. we just got so much french homework! GRR...
i am very curious what ji mi's books are like, since it seems that his books are quite popular among some pple in the class. OH and i learnt how to say my bag is heavy in jap : wa-ta-shi-no ka-bang-wa oh-mo-yi-des. haha.
Feeling's are weird... they leave you bewildered and the same time lost. i mean sometimes i really don't want to have feelings.i don't want to be angry. i don't want to be sad. i dont want to be hurt. yes.i guess those are my main feelings. which are HORRID. but look, if i don't have feelings, i won't be able to be happy, won't be able to feel love, and most importantly,i won't be able to love others. oh and that's a huge sacrifice.so i've decided to chuck away those negative feelings, though they are inevitable. it's the deep hurt that pierces through your heart...pain,real painful. i've yet to tell someone my real feelings, i've got no one to confide in. no one. no one whom i can really tell my troubles, how i really, really feel. no one there. just there. though this year i told myself that maybe having a best friend isn't so good after all, since you don't really mix with the rest. but now i THINK i've made a mistake. THINK. i still refuse to admit i'm wrong. i've long lost the feeling of not having someone there for you, no matter what happens, no matter what you do. the feeling of loss when you just have no one to tell your feelings to.i've got them ALL hidden, i've yet to express my REAL feelings. i do admit that i have expressed some, but there are more. the aggressive side that u guys have yet to see. i'm not so simple. my feelings are deep, and if i really do express them to anyone one day, i think they will be stunned.
i really missed the memorable time we had together. sometimes i lie on my bed and relish those moments--how i wish they were to happen again. but i thought about it, if they were to happen again, would it be classified as memorable? nah.. ok maybe then we hope it wouldn't happen again. But it's a fact that memorable memories of us would not exist anymore. it's a fact that it's so hard for me to accept. but maybe it will be easy for you...yes, cause you simply don not care about us anymore. yes i will accept it. the cruel and startling fact. i think it's the end? yes, i really think so. Never did i expect this to happen.
the enchanted forest*