Dance in the Enchanted Forest...

Friday, May 18, 2007

I'm super confused.so confused. why do i have such funny feelings? don't worry people i am not depressed just confused bout some stuff. i really dunno why sometimes i feel this way to her and sometimes i feel i total different feeling towards her. whywhywhy. just feel very xian sometimes when seeing her... i also don't really understand why. sometimes i feel very touched by her actions, but i really dun understand. maybe sometimes i feel that she is a little kia-su... i was like that before so i know and can't really blame her. sorry to those people who have seen me in that state of kia-su-ness. small thing also like 世界末日。now i really know how irritaing i used to be. when she freaks out the most she does the best. but be very clear people i am not jealous lah come on... it's just that 'why must you react so greatly when u know u are not fairing badly' feeling.i was like that before and i really know now that i was irritating. she's getting better now=) was being very nice to me=) i think she lost that sense of real laughter. or maybe it's just my fault，my expectations. she used to be so joyful，so full of laughter that she cheers people up.she changed, really changed.the xian one now.she affects me, i dunno why.her xian look makes me xian the whole day already.haiz. i dunno maybe i'm expecting too much from her.i really dun. but 谢谢你朋友，午餐时你从不拒绝和我一起吃。如果没有你，我的生活也过得无趣。你总是陪伴着我，但有时我也觉得很烦恼，毕竟为什么会对你产生这种感觉。在没有人的世界里，你是我唯一能依靠的人，因为每个人都有了他们的另一半。我觉得伤心，因为我突然发现我以前的朋友都变了。也许是那天你跟我说的那句‘我答应了我的老朋友，我永远都不会变。’，我才对你产生那种距离感。真的，自从那天起我突然对你很失望，我的心也被你刺伤了。从那天开始我就告诉了自己，你不是‘那个人’。也许吧。

ok i wasn't being emo. just saying what i really felt. i'm not sad, why should i? i have practically no reason=) napfa was super tiring lah. jump and jump reach and reach and run and run.wah xian lah. tomorrow there's dance again. aiyo. already aching like crazy le.>< oh and thanks jesslene for her wise advice to take creative writing. i don't think i'm gonna regret it now.i hope there will be excursions--what she said was right,you must well gain something from this sabbaticals. ok so i shall learn more chinese=) now i realise the importance of chinese.. it's just the word that carries so much weight and effect.=) and i got a C for my sit and reach lah. dunno why leh. since pri 4 already like that le. anyway, it's over! YIPEE!! and it's sabbaticals next week.=)

And i am so proud of jesslene today! the ICT teacher kept praising her and everytime he did i felt so happy=) she's really good lah. everyone who sees this should go see her ICT!!! it rocks and to jesslene: you are really talented as the teacher says so you should keep it up! you rock at computers! even mdm lee also said that u are a genious this morning cos u were able to fix the sound thingy! i was so proud too muahahhahaha. 心里甜滋滋的！you are really good. believe me.be proud of you. i bet everyone in 1/3 also is very very proud of our dear jesslene.. muahaha. (hope you don't mind me being so expressive about you) haha.=) =)

I'm not going to do any homework today. slept at 12am for three consecutive nights lah. SUPER TIRED. and SUPER SUAN. haiz. xian! cca !! ahahhhh.not that it isn't fun but i'm already so stretched and PULLED. ah.grrrr... anw.wahahha.i'm super tired, and i think i should guve myself a break though i have not completed anything.aiya what to do.nvm lah.hahaz going to go sleep now. :) thanks to all my friends once again:) good night and sweet dreams to all.

the enchanted forest*